Happy Halloween 2010

Jane the Cup Cake, Eli the Frankenstein and Hyrum the Buzz light year. Walt was having nothing to do with costumes this year. I have learned to just not push that kid in to any thing he dosn't want to do. I never win that way. So, no costume for Walt this year.

Our freaky pumpkin that Matt was given at the pumpkin drop. It was a crowed pleaser as well as our giant pumpkin balloon floating in front of our house. Oh, I can't forget about our giant licorice ropes and our giant pixie sticks we handed out to the trick or treaters. Matt doesn't do any thing small.

This is what it looked like out our house as we headed out to trick or treat. Even though the weather was not the best the kids and I had a great time. I usually stay home to hand out candy but this year I got to go with the kids. I loved it.

Making out witches brew to go with our pizza dinner.

Harrison and Eli helping Matt get the balloon ready. HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

More Pumpkin Smash

Some how I still manage to load my photos out of order. Oops. The car pretty much just inhaled that giant pumpkin.

Both of these awesome photos were from the S.L. Tribune.

Before dropping the pumpkin Matt gutted it to save the seeds. He and Eli are re-attaching the piece they removed to get out the seeds.

It was so crazy high. I think my favorite part was watching the pumpkin falling through the air.

Mom, Jane, Sammy, Eli, Max and I got to go up in the crane when Kyle Fox dropped his giant pumpkin on to some office furniture. It was supper cool. I thought I would be scared out of my shorts up at the top but I actuality enjoyed it. I was really worried Eli was going to fall over the side. That kid just can't sit still and he has no fear.

Jane and Sam

Mom and I

Max and Eli, It started to rain really hard when we went up in the crane.

Hee haw farms was loads of fun. Jane and Hyrum on the swings.

Eli sopping wet from catching ducks.

Waiting for the pumpkin to drop.

Ah, now isn't this classic. (This photo reminds me of the time we were at church and Hyrum picked his nose. I wiped it off his little finger with lightning speed, worried some one might see how disgusting my child was being. Then he said really loud, "hey, I was going to eat that." So much for not being embarrassed.)

We had a lot of great family and friends show up to see the pumpkin splat. I always feel so blessed when I see a lot of our family and friends together.

Uncle Brad and LottyMay.

They dropped some pumpkins on a swimming pool and a trampoline. They put dry ice in the pool, I thought it made it look warm on such a cold day. By the end of the day they were both destroyed.

Eli and Max on the Hay jump.

Ridding cars.

Corn Angle Jane.

Having fun in the rain. Jeremy, Kennedy, Eli, Max, Sammy, Matt, and Jane.

This picture of Eli makes me laugh.

Walt had a total ball playing in the corn box. I don't know what he loved best, the corn box or watching the pumpkins drop. Jane love the petting zoo the best, Eli the hay jump and Hyrum driving around the car's.

Pumpkin Drop

Matt dropped his pumpkin yesterday at Hee Haw Farms. This is a video that the S.L Trib put together. We had so much fun. The weather worked out just nicely. It stopped raining in time for the drop and just long enough to play for a few hours. I will post photo's of the big day some other time. I am off to watch a movie with my pumpkin growing maniac. Hooray, I think it has been three months since our last movie date. :)

365 Swap with the Cultivate girls

Melissa, Hayley, Me and Jen

How fun are the mustashe's? I just addor thease girls. We meet together once a month to help share our goals, bounce ideas off each others heads, encourage oneanother and build friendships.

Hayley put up this super cute door in front of her house to mark where we had the swap.

Everything came together so well. We served bread and jam, fruit, crackers and dip, pumpkin bars, oreo truffles and chocolate chip cookies.

As a thank you for coming we had everyone fill a treat bag to take home.

It was a really fun experience and I am looking forward to the next one. I count each of the cultivate girls as a blessing in my life. They are all such bright lights.

Thank's to Hayley for the awesome photos. If you want to see more you can click here, or click on the cultivate link on the top right side of my blog.

Exposed and Insecure

I am righting this because I can't lay in bed and cry about it any longer. I want all who read my blog to know how insecure it make's me that you read my blog. One of my biggest weaknesses in life is my poor spelling and grammar. I recently had someone tell me that you can use spell check when blogging. Well I really wanted to just wanted to be done with the conversation, then I wanted to yell at them. " Of corse I know I can spell check. Don't you know I have to use spell check and the dictionary ALL THE TIME." Even with these helps I still manage to have errors. You would think that thoughts two things would make you pretty much idiot proof! I guess not. My weakness in this area hold's me back from doing a lot of things. I think my insecurity with my ability to learn has always been with me. Maybe it is just something I am meant to struggle with and try to over come. Fine, I can accept that, but I really hate feeling this kind of pain, this pain that has been with me forever, and thinking of my kids probably having to feel this. I know so many people who struggle with things that seem far more important and that make's me feel ashamed of my own feelings. So I can't spell, no big deal right? It's a big deal for me. It affects me every day. I know it is inevitable that we are all going to feel pain in our lives.

Is this a cry for help, I think NOT. Only venting and hopefully some understanding. If you have an invite to my blog, my journal, or this is one of my children all grown up and reading this. It is because I feel loved by you. Thank you for loving me despite my weaknesses.

I have done many hours of different learning programs through my childhood and as an adult. I spent way more time on homework than any of my friends just to pull C's. I feel that my hard work showed nothing. I am not giving up yet. I want to be there for my kids. I can't help them if I don't know how. This is very difficult for me. I don't want to have to put the homework help on Matt because I can't help them. I am still learning, trying and after my tears and this vent session I am ready to get back on the horse. I want my Kids to know that you never give up. No matter how much you want to run from you problems, struggles, your pains. No matter how insignificant they may seem.

Lion King Sep. 18th

We got to go to the Lion King on Sep 18th with My Mom, Dad and Grandma Baird. I love going to the theater. I love getting dressed up and making it a special occasion. I hope this is something my kids will learn to love and appreciate as well. Before the show we ate dinner at Alora pizza in Bountiful first. It is a bit of a chore to go out to dinner with all the kids, so we just haven't done it in a really long time. I don't even think Walt has been to a restaurant. It was a lot of fun just having Jane and Eli. They were very good. The pizza was super yummy.

Jane and Eli seeing who could make a funnier face at the restaurant.

Matt, Eli, Jane, Me, Dad, Mom and Grandma Baird

The show was great. Eli leaned over to me at one point in the show and said "I sure would like to meet thoughts actors." Jane and Eli both loved it. This was Eli's firs Broadway. I wasn't sure how he would do but he couldn't keep his eye's off the stage. I did let him eat an entire row of Oreo cookies, that probably helped him sit still. I don't know how he wasn't sick after. Although this picture sort of shows how tied he was. We went to a late show. I can't wait to go back. I think Jane and I would love to have season tickets.

Spud Man Triathlon

I can't belive I am finally bloging this, two months later. This year a bunch of my Baird family decided to do the spud man triathlon together. It was fun getting to train a little bit with my Dad. He would come up to Mountain Green and we would take our bike's out. I really enjoyed all the time we had together.

Uncle Russ finished in 2:59

Jermy finished in 3:02 and Laurie did the bike portion of a relay.

Aunt Angie finished in 2:55

Uncle Brad finished in 2:14

I finished in 2:39 (18th in my age group) When I saw my time I thought,"I think I can do better".

I loved the swim! It was so much fun swimming down the river.

The bike rocked, but I took it easy in fear of being dead by the run.

The run was hot. Mile four I wanted to be done so bad. The last 1/2 mile I new I was close so I ran as fast as I could. I can't wait to do it again :)

Matt was amazing!! When is he not? He camped out with the kids the night before the race and I slept at my aunt Monica's house. He is such a trooper. Thank goodness he had Kali to help him. After I finished the race I saw Matt and cried. I thought to my self, " Why am I crying?" I think when I saw Matt I felt all the love and support he had given me in training and doing the tri. I was pretty much an emotional reck after that. I was anxious to find my Dad and hear how he did. I was really worried about him because he had pulled his calf muscle shortly before the race. As soon as I found him I cried so more. I was relived to find he did awesome and had a good time.

Seth finished in 3:05(with no training behind him. Ahh, to be youthful.)

Dad finished in 2:59

I was so proud of both my Dad and Seth for doing this with me.

My support group giving me some water on the run. I loved getting to see them. I wanted to just stop running and hang out with them. I was kinda missing my kids.

I got to see Matt, Kali, Payton and the kids on the bike and on the run. It is amazing what a loving face and some cheering does for me.

Payton and Walt

Kali and Hyrum

I think Walt just ate Cheetos the whole time we were in Idaho.

After the triatholon, we went boating on the snake river. Lona and Denis have a house right on the river.

Kali somehow got Hyrum to get in the water. He didn't even cry, I think he had a lot of fun with his aunt Kali.

Jane in the boat.

Eli on the boogie board.

Me, Walt, Mom, Eli, Matt and Hyrum at Lona and Denis's house. Enjoying the view.

My five siblings and Payton. I LOVE when we all get to be together. We always have such a good time. I am so grateful for my friendship with all of them.

My sweet sistahs!